Ah to be complete

As I scan the table all too aware of the pieces that are missing, one finally catches my eye. I place it in and it fits so perfectly. For a moment I smile but as i lean back to admire my work, I realize that getting one piece in made me so aware of the 200 other piece that are yet to be placed/found. The joy is sucked out immediately and I soon forget I found a piece at all. I wish I could enjoy the small successes for just a little while longer. Long enough for a smile to fully form. Maybe next week. But you know what does make me happy?
Matthew James Allen
My sister, my joy
Jen-n
Min
chocolate ice cream/gelato (both in one day)
Clean laundry
and last but certainly not least my dearest, most beloved, world traveling N'yder. How I love her. No one knows my soul like she. But will she forgive me?

on a somber note

When my mother was little she named her grandmother Mema, and now all 6 great grandchildren call her Mema as well ( as long a few other kids that have come and gone.) She is a fragile thing but so full of life and vitality that nothing stops her from doing (and saying) whatever she wants. She is an artist, really. She uses every medium, including on past occasion Mel Gibson's face. Why am i posting about her? She is sick. In the hospital at the moment. This is not the first time but this is the most serious in a chain of illness/pain. I have such great respect for my grandma ( Mindy). I know at time she must get tired of having to take care of her complaining invalid mother but she does it every day. She is so selfless. But despite Mindy's valiant efforts I fear Mema's end is in sight and that scares me a little. Did she ever know Jesus? Will I see her in heaven? I hope so. I hope there was a preacher who came to her house one day and told her abour our Lord. I hope that for a moment she prayed that prayer and meant it. But maybe I am being dramatic and she has many more years on this earth to collect cats and shoo away iguanas. Well enough sad thoughts back to studying.

My life looks like this

Breath
Cavities
Chew
Cup
Dental surgeon
Dentist
Enamel
Erosion
Filling Floss
Fluoride
Gingivitis
Gumline
Gums
Molar
Mouthwash
Periodontal
Root canal Smile
Teeth
Tooth fairy
Toothbrush
Toothpaste
Toothpick
Whitening


I even dream about cleaning teeth

Mac and I are in love.
What else is there to say?
We stay up all night just to be together.
I always dread tucking him away for the night.
If Mac would take human form we might run away together.