Dear Jake,

The unending bitterness that Harry Potter is not real.

You know exactly what I mean by that. It hits you at sudden, inexplicable moments and the despair can be crippling. There is no Hogwarts. There is no magic.

But even as I type the words that make tears spring forth from your eyes... I'll never truly believe it. It is in my nature to try to catch a glimpse behind the veil. It is in my nature to believe that Nessie is real. I mean come on, listen.

1. There were dinosaurs.

2. There was a flood.

3. We know at least one 'sea serpent' survived. The Bible mentions it 6 times! The Leviathan Job 41.

4. Is it really such a leap then that the Lock Ness Monster is alive. Picture it, the flood water is receding. Nessie is swimming happily, the whole world is a big lake. But the deep canyons are getting shallower. The next day she is blocked from the ocean. She can't get back. Land has divided her from life. Her prison is Loch Ness. But God must have loved Nessie because the water is so naturally murky, and full of under water tunnels that she can have a full safe life.

One last obstacle though right? How long ago was the flood? A long time. How can Nessie still be alive?

5. There are animals that live eternally. Jellyfish. The can't die of old age.

So there.

How did I get to Nessie? Oh yeah.

So even though J.K. made up Harry Potter, I am still holding out hope...

...for Jake.

You've probably realized he's our last hope.

And he's also the closest to 11.

Jake, have you noticed things happening by just thinking them? Did you remove the glass of the snake exhibit at the zoo and trap your father in there. (Everyone just giggle at that mental picture) Do you have a scar....

That fateful July wasn't fireworks, it was Lord Voldemort. How could we not realize that. It's so obvious now. I'm sorry I didn't dive in front of Jake cause then he'd have a layer of protection on him but I did dunk him in nasty lake water so we'll call it even.

Ok, Jake. When you get your acceptance letter to Hogwarts. Remember who got you that awesome toothbrush? Aunt Megan. Remember who 'let' you have x-rays taken when you got your teeth cleaned last week? Aunt Megan. Who plays video games with you? Aunt Megan.

So here's what I want.

A house elf. Just one. I'll share it with Matt.

When I was reading the books, I was all with Hermoine.

S.P.E.W. Forever. Free the house elves.

But now that I'm closer to an invalid... It would be super awesome to have someone make meals every day and clean the house and apparate me home from work and lay cold washcloths on my eyes. Maybe I should just get a wife lol. Just kidding Matt.

But Jake I'd like one.

Even though, I've yet to find real magic or a unicorn. I have seen miracles.

So you all remember my vertigo? my super power. So usually when it comes it lasts for 2-5 days. Last wednesday my vertigo started at 3pm. I sent out prayer texts and by 5:30 I was healed.

I will take the Lord's miracle over magic any day.

Here is the proof. at 5:30

That's me with my head upside down. Can't do that with vertigo.

Ben Pictures :)

Someone was determined to spend the evening fussy but Aunt Brittany wouldn't hear any of it.