"Even in the darkest phase be it thick or thin, always someone marches brave here beneath my skin."
-- K. D. Lang
There are times when I feel out of place in this world. When things are passing by so fast and I am stalling out. But worse than this is when I am uncomfortable in myself. This may be crazy. I may be the only person who feels this. But moments come where I feel like I don't fit myself. I shrug my shoulders but I don't settle in better. I feel awkward and having lost all my grace, wonder where my place is in this world. It's just a passing phase. Maybe I'm having an identity crisis now that I have no school to consume me for a couple weeks. Hmm who knows. I feel a little bit like Sara when she said " perhaps Emily is more like me than I am like myself." Now I just wish I could find my Emily.
2 comments:
You are not alone in that..... You are so lovely, I only hope one day you feel as lovely as you are. As soon as school is out we manage to fill our mind with a thousand other useless worries until the choas returns. We must certainly be crazy....I dont know what I would do without you :0)
Now I know this probably will sound crazy....but we did some fun "exercises" (I am hesitant to call is meditation because it has such a negative connotation in my mind)in buddhism class to -"get in touch with self" (which is kind of Ironic considering they dont believe self exists)- but they are actually pretty fun. It just help you become aware of your body and so you can love yourself. Wow I wish this did not sound so utterly ridiculous. Anyway call me and I will tell you about it.....
Love ya,
T
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