D.C. Update

Hey dears,

D.C. is a really fun city. We are slowly taming the giant hill we have to walk every day to reach the metro. We don't have to stare anxiously at the metro map because we know where we are going. Super Cool. We know. Also we take an elevator to our apartment on the 10th floor (that's the top one ;)

But even my new level of coolness...

"Welcome to Coolsville. Population:Us"

Britt name that movie.

... Things are not well.

Guess what's more fun than withdrawal from one medicine?

Withdrawal from all the medicines you've ever taken.

Yeah!

No not yeah at all.

So I went to my new neurologist. He seems like he has treated someone with migraines before (step up). He also seems really confident and has lost of plans. He has yet to get that baffled 'So what am I supposed to do with you now' face. I hate to wish him failure but i hate more to hope.

So whether I believe he is "The Doctor" or not, I'll still do what he says.

So he says that I am a migraine sufferer who became a chronic migraine sufferer (Transformative Migraines) who then became a rebound migraine sufferer.

All that to say I gets lots of migraine and now the medicine that has made me able to merely function are trying to destroy me. The almost daily over-the-counter pills I take make me able to stand upright and walk in the sun, most of the time at least, have been thwarting my body's ability to heal. Dr says they have blocked the preventive medications I have tried and that unless I never take another Tylenol or Excedrin, I will not get better.

This didn't seem so difficult last Wednesday. Haha I love when my body's inability to handle stress surprises even me.

So now I get withdrawal from Nortriptyline (Remember 'Nori" How her hearts was broken by an empty co-pilot chair.) & Tylenol & Excedrin at the same time. I don't cuss often but the phrase

"It has been a living hell" seems as close to mark as I can get.

The pain is bad. I'd say unbearable but apparently last night ended and its today so...

but it's all the other awful side effects that may be worse.

The anxiety & the anger. Directionless, Impractical, Unfounded. I never know when it's going to hit me. I'll be happy and giggly and then all the sudden I am shaking the anger that the fan in our bedroom is not plugged in. "Why isn't the fan plugged in!? It should always be plugged in!" I rant at my husband. It doesn't matter that its unplugged because he hung curtains to keep out my arch nemesis the "Sun". No all I could think about was that the fan was unplugged and apparently that meant the end of civilization as we know it. As we all can see now, that was ridiculous and terribly unfortunate that my poor husband was in the room when I discovered the great betrayal. So now we have Code word: Lollipop. This means "Run! Run as fast as you can! I'm mutating and if you stay it's your own fault."

So that's probably already more than you need to know. I love you all.

Oh the good thing is that I should be completely withdrawn from the meds in 8-10 days. I know that may seem like a long time to you but it's way shorter than the possible 7 months I'll have withdrawal symptoms from Nori. He's a dear.

I'll start Botox if I'm not cured in 2 months and I start a physical therapist on wednesday. Which if it's anything like my mother's I don't know if I want to go... the jazzie chair

Not that you need anything more depressing to read but this blog is so horrible and honest tears stream down my face.

Debilitating migraines, a near-daily mix of tension headaches and torture

Oh and picture of my niece

She looks so beautiful

Yes, I'm a model

Haha I'm so mean. I laid her in her book cupboard and she was not amused but Britt & I were.